Cousins, Honesty, and Sleep

There's something absolutely sweet about younger people who look up to you for help. Since I'm staying in Florida I've had plenty of occasions to help all 3 of my cousins. They're 9, 6, and 2.

Alli is the 2 year-old, and she's still in diapers. She can be a holy terror, but she's a cutie. She'll come up to me, sometimes grinning and laughing, sometimes really solemn, and she'll look me in the eyes and say, "Lad-la, will you change me? I has poopies."
hehe!! She's so cute. And when we play together and she puts her hands on my face and says, "Now I need you to listen to me. You need to take a nap. Do you understand? I'm going to close the door now." (Can you tell what her biggest issue is?) it's just so funny how serious she is, and I play along, just so I can watch her.


It's such a weird thing to me that I am a Big Kid now. For years, Big Kids were the sacred influence in my life. I wanted to be like the Big Kids. If the Big Kids talked to me, I was in heaven. If they laughed at me (just because they thought I was cute, but still), it hurt my feelings and made me angry in different way than if my peers had ridiculed me.

I had two heroes as a little kid - my piano teacher Miss Rachel, and our scripture memory leader, Miss Joy.

Miss Rachel has a family of her own now, and I admire her very much. Miss Joy is my friend now, and one of my mentors. God bless all the mentors our there who lead others on to righteousness by example and word. I pray that I can be that kind of mentor to someone else one day.




I was talking to a friend recently who mentioned how they hide behind wackiness a lot. I was trying to figure out what I hide behind, but I'm not really sure. Wouldn't it have been wonderful, in the Garden of Eden, having nothing to hide? And then the disappointment and shame Adam and Eve felt once they did have something to hide. We can't get around hiding some things in this life, because there are some things you just can't tell other people - for various reasons. It will be so refreshing, though, when we get to heaven and all our thoughts and motives will be pure, and there will be no need to hide anything!!! I get so excited, thinking about heaven.



So, some people can go on 6 hours of sleep every night. Some people, 8, and some people need 10. I need 10. Which is eternally frustrating. I do not want to go to bed early enough to be able to get up when I need to be up, especially when I'm on vacation. *sigh* So then I end up being sleep throughout the day. It's so frustrating. When school goes back in session and there are days I'll need to be out the door at 9 on the dot it's a bit easier. I get up at 7 and have plenty of time to eat and prepare for school, mentally and physically. If I want to get up at 7, however, I have to go to bed at 9!! If I start getting up at 6, like I'd like to, I'll have to go to bed at 8. That's pretty early. I like to stay up and study from 8-11. Night owl.

Anyway, I need to eat and this has been a great big ramble.

I am so ready for school to start, and to get my piano back, and to join the choir!

Loshie