God is so good. I am so grateful for his work in my life. He has really been stretching me this semester, and as it has FLOWN by I have really been able to see His hand more clearly than ever before.
Right now I'm going through a huge putting-to-proof stage. I am really needy, financially, right now, and I am so having to trust God. I tithed this morning, even though I don't technically have the money to be tithing...... :\ I admit I struggle with being afraid that He's going to drop me and leave me here, and then I'll be sitting here looking like a poor fool for trusting that God was going to provide for me, and he didn't. I know he will, but the Tempter knows just where to 'press my button' and it is a struggle to fight him off. So often I don't realize where it is him.
I have been also struggling with staying in the Word lately, which isn't helping. The less truth I am absorbing, the easier it is to become blind to the lies.
- So, I was writing all that and talking to a friend, and I felt Jesus calling me to go spend some time with him. So, I ended my convos and grabbed my Bible and ran out to my happy place, which is where I always go to meet Jesus. My siblings aren't allowed to come down there and bother me. It's a really neat place, actually. Back in Winter 07 I was spending a lot of time teaching the kids and taking care of the house. It was pretty tough, and at times I just needed to get AWAY from the kids, or things would get ugly. There were three trees in the old dog pen, and someone had started building a tree house there, so I had Nicholas help me (Actually, I helped him ;] ) build a little 'happy place'. I have a triangular platform with rails on two of the sides, a good ways up in the tree...I guess about 6ish feet up in the tree. Just high enough, and not too high. Then I have a swing. =)
Anyway, so I ran out there and spent some time reading my Bible, and praying. Then I just spent some time being still and at peace (which is a big deal for me. =P I've not had much be still/peace time lately, which is my own fault).
I've spent a lot of time praying these past few days, which has been super refreshing. I love investing in my friends by praying for them. It's so cool! And I just love communing with God.
Anyway. God is good, life is stretching me, and I am ready for summer and to see what God is about to do!
<3
Laura
1 comment:
keep trusting in the Lord. It is good you see your need to draw closer to Him and to grow deeper in His Word. Seeing and admitting there is a problem is always the best first step toward getting closer to the Lord. May you know Him more and more as you grow closer to Him. I am sorry if I have been a cause, but you have been wise to get off to spend more time with Him. Makes me want to get more deeper than I am as well. :) Thank you for being a constant encouragement for me to follow after God more. Keep living for Him and serving Him faithfully. God bless you, L.A.
B.I.C.
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