Balance

God is so good, and I am so small. I am constantly amazed at his beautiful fluidity. He is so balanced, so constant, so the same. I change, oh so very much. Which, is a good and a bad thing! I don't want to stay the same, I want to become more like Christ. But in everyday life I change. I am happy one minute, depressed the next, calm on, angry the next, lazy one, motivated the next. One day I am beating myself up about how weak and small I am as a Christian, and another day I am praising God for this because it means He is glorified in me, as I go to the Cross and receive His grace and strength.


This morning I am getting ready to go to school, and I will be at school for a long day! If you read this today, please do say a prayer for me. The metal chairs at school are really uncomfortable for my back, and the long hours of concentration, well, my attention span isn't extremely long, and my dyslexia kicks in the longer I must force myself to focus. =P

I am praying that God will help me remember to seek His joy. I haven't had that joy for a week or so, I have been so worried about college and this semester, I've been so upset with myself for being such a failure and on top of that, NOT going to the Cross to receive grace and strength (and forgiveness!!!) He is so beautiful, and this Sunday he gave me a big hug, through the lessons, the music, everything. He's showing me that I am a hypocrite, even when I think I am not. It is so important to be on my knees and seek God fervently in prayer every day. I want to be like Jesus so much, and it is so hard, but so worth it.

<3 Laura

Romans 8:28

I know that God is working all things together for my good and his glory!